In the Lands of Forever

I wish forever was now,
I'd gladly say "I do".
For this feeling of completion,
Could only be added by you.
You and I are two,
But in love we are one.
The story book is long,
And we've only just begun.
In the lands of Forever,
That's where you'll find my heart.
Right next to yours,
They'll never be apart.
So with each promise you utter,
Is a word closer to always.
You know the promise I want,
Together we'll spend our days.

My Heart Won't Disengage

Never shall I leave,
But sometimes I will falter.
My heart won't disengage,
I'll meet you at the alter.
The day I first kissed you,
I made a promise to love.
A promise to protect,
A heart sent from above.
Nothing is ever easy,
But it was easy to fall for you.
I'll light myself up,
For never shall I be blue.
I'm losing it slowly,
But I'm yours too keep.
Forever and ever and always,
As next to you I fall asleep.

Just Remember Not to Forget

So I heard today,
That you'd fallen in love.
Someone not me,
It was so hard to think of.
It hit me harder than I thought,
But I don't know why.
It really did hurt,
I just can't lie.
Just couldn't be away from you,
But you did what you had to do.
I don't regret the choice I made,
This is true.
It doesn't change the fact,
That I miss the warmth you radiate.
But I have fallen in love too,
Guess this was all up to fate.
I always think of the promise,
The night you spoke to me.
The ring on my finger,
Its where its meant to be.
We've now reached December,
And we're making families of our own.
Apart is where we belong,
But never ever alone.
Just remember not to forget,
Love will never leave your side.
We were but love junk vagabonds,
Who learnt to abide.

A Simple Little Rant

Why is it that whenever I say goodbye you give a retort? Its how its always been. Why? Is it because something deep inside tells you to keep going? To keep replying. To keep egging on the conversation. No. You'd deny that immediately. Always too scared to admit, even to yourself, what really lies inside. I tried for half a year to understand what went on inside that head, but I always failed. You always changed and I couldn't keep up. I became not enough. I was left behind. This was never the first time, and it'll never be the last. This is how it shall always be between us. This silly game of cat and mouse, with neither one of us wanting the other to win. We fight. Constantly. Never really a peaceful word between us. Even when we do spit out a compliment, we don't mean it. Secretly we both wish for the same thing. Longing that the other isn't doing as well as they had. Together. Together as one. So we fight. Fight. Never giving up until its too late, then still continuing. Its how it will always be. We can't stop it. No matter how many times we say goodbye. But alas, goodbye is never what we mean. Goodbye is always a new beginning for us. Its the last thing we can cling to to keep us going. You were me and I was you at one point, but with that point we drew a fine line and walked away. Well, you did. I just followed like a sad puppy with my tail between my legs. I finally gave up. I let you give the final blow and I fell to the floor. I let you win. But there's still that ache, that longing inside. I always wonder if you have it as well. You have to. You just have to have it. You told me the same things I told you. Those three simple words. I know you meant it. So you must feel it. But, you're too scare. You always have been. That's ok. Ok... not really. But you said you did what you had to do. And so now I am as well. I'm sorry. Now you know how I feel. I still feel like I did that fifth day of the twelfth month. It won't change. I won't change. But we've hardened. We hardened because of what you did. And I understand. Its just hectic. Not that simple anymore. Thus the feelings of artificial hate we have for one another. I'll die before I change the way I look at you. Goodbye.

Magical Thinking Gets Us By

You're starting to grow up now,
As you sit in your apartment and cry.
The world seems so mean now,
But all you can do is try.
The sunlight brings new horizons,
You're just another person in the crowd.
And when you open your mouth,
Your words never come out loud.
But you never give up,
Keeping your head held high.
Always looking for that special something,
Just trying to get by.
At night the darkness lingers,
It's the same old frightening fears.
Hoping the monsters won't get you,
Wishing that he was here.
Never worrying about life,
With him time always flies.
Together there's forever and always,
Magical thinking gets us by.

I've Got a Secret (Part II)

A silence falls upon us all,
No one knows what to say.
Erie eyes cast a circle,
Each go in different ways.
Always hand in hand,
And a smile on each face.
These people think they're "best friends",
But that is surely not the case.
Each one holds something close,
A secret the other doesn't know.
But they always shrug it off,
Hoping it won't show.
They go about their lives,
Thinking its okay.
Lying to one another,
Making it day to day.
So until their dying breath,
They believe they have it covered.
But to their dismay,
Each "best friend" knew what hovered.

In Need of Some Direction

These days seem to go by so slow,
Yet the time passes so fast.
I always seem to falter,
And a moment never seems to last.
Lately I've been kind of lost,
In need of some direction.
I fell into your arms,
With a need of affection.
I run my fingers through my hair,
And I look into your eyes.
Crack a grin, nod my head,
I look past all your lies.
It's never an easy journey,
This path we call love.
But we always stick through it,
When push comes to shove.
So I'll drink to your health,
A nice bottle of red wine.
Because I've come to realize,
You're the best that's been mine.

Was Right All Along

I sit here and rip my hair out,
Just wanting to scream.
Life changes in the instant,
Do you know what I mean?
I hit my head against the desk,
You give me so many reasons.
Your attitude always changes,
Like the changing of the seasons.
I've been trying to stay calm,
Though my life's been so shitty.
I bite back my tongue,
Not to be crude and so witty.
I love you so much,
If only you could see.
That what I am right now,
Is what I'm meant to be.
So to make the time go by,
I listen to the same damn tune.
So I'll write another love song,
Until I see you soon.
Right by your side,
Is where I always belong,
Please don't say I told you so,
For I was right all along.

Dear Aber,

I've had my feelings of lingering,
Like the cool wind on your back.
Walking down the path of life,
You always seem to get off track.
I've loved and been hurt,
Had my fair share of tears.
But dear Aber,
You got rid of my fears.
I know Aber won't leave me,
Because he said that it's true.
That when the days get colder,
Everything turns a deeper blue.
He's the warmth in the sun,
The sparkle in the North star.
Like a much needed smile,
I know he's not far.
No way you're taking me down,
Though these days keep me up at night.
I'll stay awake with Aber,
Until the morning light.
Though I might can't hold you,
You're the love that's within.
Dear Aber this is your chapter,
And I don't know where to begin.

Here's A Little Story

Now here's a little story,
About a boy who was dying.
Everything crumbled down around him,
But he kept on trying.
Each night he layed down,
He listened to his own heart beat.
What he wanted was so simple,
Yet all he saw was defeat.
He woke up each morning,
And looked into the mirror.
His presence was disappearing,
Each day it became clearer.
He lost his balance time and again,
In the process breaking his own heart.
But he never gave up,
Always getting back up for a new start.
Someone once told him,
That for love you must wait.
So he waited for forever,
And then in came fate.
Tall, dark, and superman,
An angel was sent from above.
He answered all his dreams,
Gave him all his love.
The days became shorter,
And the wind blew cool.
Everything was perfect,
But this boy was no fool.
He knew he didn't deserve this,
It was all too much.
Though he ached for the angel,
And ached for his touch.
The day he was alone,
The boy threw the ring into the river.
He wasn't what the angel needed,
This realization sent down a shiver.
Selfish was what he was being,
But he couldn't help it one bit.
He knew he had to let go,
Though he always gave a fit.
Now this boy grew to love the angel,
More and more each day.
He prayed to God above,
That this is how it'd stay.
But the Lord is the creator,
And love is the game.
All alone in this world,
The boy couldn't utter his name.
He pushed the angel away,
And ran into the dark.
Hurting them both,
He left his mark.
Now take into consideration,
This story is all true.
Not a make believe fairytale,
But a story of me and you.
The boy had lost his way,
Cold and completely broken.
But every night he cursed,
And the words were never spoken.
His heart was on the verge of stopping,
He didn't know what to do.
So he screamed at the Heavens above,
To send him some kind of clue.
The sounds of love echoed,
Lightning struck down with thunder.
But he wasn't what the angel wanted,
And this made him shudder.
He knew that things happen,
And people tend to change.
He ran out of time,
Things became rearranged.
With his last thought,
He learnt to never say never.
And with his last breath,
Uttered "I'll love you forever".

I've Got A Secret

My smile is usually fake,
I seem to be the only one to try.
I'll never admit I love you,
I sit on my floor and cry.
You're the best thing that's ever been mine,
I've been in love with a dancer.
I constantly look at your Facebook,
And I have got cancer.
I've never forgiven my mom,
"Party in the U.S.A" is my jam.
Chocolate is my guilty pleasure,
I'm usually always awake at 4AM.
My little sister and I aren't related,
I've tried weed.
I've failed more than once,
In a dance I can't take the lead.
I've kissed more than ten people,
I hardly ever wear socks.
I kind of like country music,
I like to be the boy that shocks.
I have a tendency to talk to my cat,
I've never had detention.
I'm not really good at anything,
And I really like attention.
Secrets are such a beautiful thing, but used the wrong way they can destroy. We all go through life hiding something. If we never release it, it'll always haunt us. These are but a few of the things I hide and keep to myself. I'm sharing to the world because I need this sweet relieve, a secret escape. As I write, I find out more about myself than I previously knew. I believe it is very important to get your feelings out in the open. Always take the risk and live on a whim. Always keep your head high and your heart open. It's never to late to speak up.

I Wonder if You Understand?

spinning rounD and round,
singing horribly off tune.
you're the one i wAnt,
since the beginning of june.
to you i was a no one,
just some litte, far off kid.
but as fall took its course,
i fell upon your grid.
the sunny day we met,
was like something from a book.
and the fairytale began,
from the Very first look.
you've been my superman from the start,
but I watch you fly away.
always left here wondering,
if you'll come back another day.
the moment i saiD "i love you",
my heart was ready to break.
i was wishing for the same,
and the pain for yoU to take.
i'm hoping i've grown on you,
Like you have grown on me.
hand in hand forever,
because you know I don't want to be free.
thiS can be taken as a final goodbye,
or taken the way its meant.
i'm Screaming at you now,
to give me some kind of hint.
i want you to be minE,
like i've said so many times before.
i love you, i love you, i love you forever,
now i'm living for Sure.

Killing Yourself Slowly

When you're all alone and broken,
Your mind speaks louder than your heart.
Give into the shattering pain,
As your life starts to fall apart.
You lose the innocence you once had,
And wish you could go back to the day.
Back to when life was simple,
And things went your way.
Life is all fun and games,
Until you realize what you've lost.
But you keep doing what you do,
Killing yourself slowly at what cost?
The ones you love are gone forever,
And you're left to live with your fear.
You think if you pull the trigger,
You can quietly disappear.
Now you lay your self down to sleep,
And wonder why there's no light.
You're all alone in this big, big world,
As you turn over and fade into the night.

I Admired From Afar... Now Look Where We Are, Love

I remember you as the boy,
I admired from afar.
Never thinking that one day,
You'd be my shooting star.
Watching your life through pictures,
Complimenting them with a smile.
Now you make my heart skip beats,
Damn... it's been a while.
The way your brown eyes sparkle,
You'd swear they're stars in the sky.
I'm always puzzled by how you keep me tounge-tied,
But I never dare ask why.
Messy hair and morning breath,
Never seems to stop your kiss.
Wrapped up cozy in your arms,
Your smile is pure bliss.
Though these time may be rough,
You stick around with a heart so big.
Your love I souly don't deserve,
But it's something I can dig.
(See what I did there?
I used some slang.
Now just close your eyes and imagine,
Me sayin' this in my country twang.)
You're the ball of fire,
That keeps my satilite in orbit.
I'll fight for your warmth,
And never shall I forfeit.
Just take my hand and be patient,
I'm willing to come around sooner or later.
Until then it will haunt me,
'Cause nothing I can find is greater.

8:28PM (We Were Crowned)

I wish I could tell you,
The things that need to be said.
I'll be dreaming of you,
As I'm tucked into my bed.
Safe in your amrs,
Is where I want to be.
Here's a simple equation:
Life without you means there's no me.
Just the thought of you lately,
Has a tendency to keep me awake.
And when I'm alone like this,
It's the ghost of you I can't shake.
Without you by my side I hardly exsist,
So I bleed my heart out for you.
I want you to see the things I can't say,
As my lips start to turn blue.
It was cold and it was wet,
As I opened my eyes to see your face.
The moment we left,
I knew there with you was my place.
I left little things behind,
To remind you and be clever.
Though we might not be the same next time,
I will love you forever.
While you left me for a bit,
And I was all alone.
I did two things,
And now they'll be shown.
The picture in your photobooth,
Is stupid, yes I know.
But the face is to remind you,
For the world we can put on a show.
The sticky note on your laptop,
I had no other place to put it.
It reads "I love you.",
Because together we're a perfect fit.
I laughed and chuckled,
As we headed out the door.
For the pillow on your bed,
Was thrown onto the floor.
Driving dark,
And driving deep.
"Long Live" came on,
And I began to weep.
I hid my face,
And the tears I shed.
I smiled at you,
As I shook my head.
We started this journey as strangers,
But along the way we were crowned.
Never knowing what the future had in store,
But with one another love was found.
So at 8:28PM,
I might have kissed you for the last time.
But no matter what happens,
You will ALWAYS be mine.

My Happily Ever After Is You

Look all around, it's a big big world,
And all alone I feel so small.
I could tell you I'm fine on my own,
But sadly enough, that'd be a tale too tall.
Right, left, right, left,
In, out, in, out.
Kick, scream, kick, scream,
What's this all about?
I'm sorry I never could be enough,
I'm so so sorry that I never am enough.
I can stand tall all by myself,
I'll show the world that I'm tough.
There's a million ways I can mess this up,
I never can keep my feet on the ground.
I'm a tad too scared to say I like you,
But my aching heart goes round and round.
My outward appearance never does justice,
With my snug headbands and too big sweaters.
You found me through the dust and fog,
Took my heart and said "I can make this better".
So these melodic tunes I hide behind,
I know you're the one I've been waiting for.
To sweep me off into a better life,
My happily ever after is what I wanted and more.
My happily ever after is YOU.

Confessions of a Teenage Heart

You're gone, I'm here,
Movement is movement.
I don't know what I'm thinking,
As I type this and see 'sent'.
I'm always a mess,
People claim I'm crazy.
With a heart too big,
And judgement that's hazy.
I don't know what to feel,
I don't really care.
But still I don't know,
When life's unfair.
I breathe in the air,
But then you steal it from me.
My heart is torn and crumbled,
All I want is to be free.
I write this 'cause I love.
I write this 'cause I miss.
I write this 'cause I hate,
I write this 'cause I diss.
Strong, strong, strong,
Is all I ever show.
You always knew my weak side.
My weakness I let you know.
Reality scares me a little to much,
Make it all go away.
Confessions of a teenage heart,
I live it day to day.

Quiet, So Desolate

In the dark there's light,
Oh, I can see your face.
Quiet, so desolate.
I'm in your place.
Black satin sheets,
White barren walls.
There goes my baby,
And the stuffed bear falls.
I realize now after so long,
You and your shit, I don't need it.
So by the end of the end,
Take your memory, 'cause I'll delete it.

All the Fear That Lies Within

Look at life,
With big ol' owl eyes.
Look past the truth,
And on to the lies.
You can keep all your hate,
All the fear that lies within.
I have a love of my own,
And it crawls beneath my skin.
You say we're too young,
You say it's way too fast.
I know I'm not crazy,
And I know this will last.
Bracelets with names,
Green and blue.
Every moment we're apart,
Is a moment I miss you.
Come into my bed,
Stay just one more night.
Under the covers we'll lay,
As you hold me tight.
I don't want to close my eyes,
For I know you'll be gone.
All alone in my room,
When the night reaches dawn.

Unneeded Words On A Page

I'm always the let down,
With my tied together smile.
I tell everyone the world's just fine,
As I sing to keep myself in denial.
I wish people could see who I am,
And to see how I feel.
Because deep down inside,
Everything goes downhill.
Nothing ever seems to last,
I'm always left of center.
Everyone burns with fire within,
I'm the cold that comes with winter.
They say there's hope for the hopeless,
But I'm way pass that stage.
I feel that my thoughts,
Are just more unneeded words on a page.
So tell me I'll be alright,
That everything is dandy.
The lies drip from your mouth,
As sweet as candy.
Life doesn't reach forever,
But I promise I'll love you that long.
People say I'm crazy, stupid, and way too young,
But deep inside I know it's not wrong.

He'll Let Me Go Never

I always want to be with you,
Who knew it'd be so hard to be alone?
Bury me six feet under,
And kill me with stone.
I'd rather be with you right now,
Than to be in this God forsaken town.
You're the air that brings me life,
And the light that shines when I'm down.
The thing is,
I love you so much.
And when you're gone,
I ache for your touch.
He said he'll love me forever,
I said always,
And he'll let me go never.

You Say "Speak Now"

Each morning I wake up,
I look in the mirror.
What I see everyday,
Couldn't get much clearer.
I'm invisible to you,
But the whole world can see.
I smile, I laugh,
Could this be?
You've picked up these pieces,
And you've mended my ways.
You showed me how to breathe again,
And I hope that it stays.
I'm invisible,
And you say "speak now".
I close my eyes and smile,
As I say "show me how".

Daniel Kind of Rhymes With Major Fail... Right?

You tried to save the ruins leftover,
Of the mess you created.
Forever and always you promised,
You took 'em back and I faded.
Does he know how you told me,
You'd hold me until you died?
I'm sorry I ever believed you,
I'm sorry I ever tried.
Take back all the shattered memories,
You're the last thing on my mind.
I'm better off without you anyway,
Someone better won't be hard to find.
So take this as a final goodbye,
I no longer want to see your face.
My heart, oh heart,
It's time to forget and erase.

I'll Live the Life I Want to Live

What is it that you say?
I should make some changes in the things I do?
I think you should write off your lies,
Because I will never let you through.
I'll live the life I want to live,
And not be someone that I'm not.
People will never tell me who I'm meant to be,
I'm true to me and so I've been taught.
You can waste away the lie you are,
Without seeing with your own two eyes.
But soon the time will start to pass,
And all the truth within will die.
Can't say I never tried to help,
I gave it everything I had.
Now you're far away and not yourself,
Is the feeling I feel so sad?
NO.

The Distance Is Daring

I'm not perfect,
But I'm perfect for you.
And the way you make me smile,
I know this is true.
I'm finally falling again,
I never thought it was possible with a broken soul.
But you picked up all my damaged pieces,
And I let you take your toll.
What the hell am I suppose to do,
When you're always on my mind?
I know the distance is daring,
But you're one of a kind.
I always trip and stumble upon my words,
Whenever I talk to you.
You're here to pick me up when I need it,
Whenever I'm down and blue.
I'd give my soul, my life, my heart, my everything,
Just to keep you here with me.
I'm ready to let lose and let go,
And be everything I know we can be.

I Wish I Was Straight Forward (Like Kate Nash)

Sometimes I just wanna say what’s on my mind,
But I don’t, so I write.
And every time you’re upset I laugh,
And you take it offensive so we fight.
I want to tell the world to fuck off,
But I don’t, so I sing.
Summer only comes once a year,
And I want more than just a fling.
The thoughts inside my head are buzzing,
They want out so bad.
I like to dress the way I do,
And I know that it’s no fad.
Sometimes I wish I was kind of different,
I wish I was straight forward like Kate Nash.
I’d say what’s begging to get out,
I’d talk, not write, and it’d be out in a flash.
I wish I could tell the world to fuck off because everyone has evil in them and no one ever puts it to good use. I wish we could just all get along or at least pretend we do and smile. But we can’t. So I keep to myself in my own little world. I WANT TO BE HAPPY! I want to love and be loved. I wish I wasn’t a horrible person, I could lie and say I’m not… but then I’d be lying. And lying is bad. I just wish I was fucking straight forward. I wish I could look the one I love in the eye and just tell him. Tell him how much he means to me and if I were to lose him my heart would deflate and my spirit would be crushed. But I'm afraid that if I tell him I'd lose him. I'm afraid to bring that subject up. I don't think he would listen or want to even understand. I don't think he loves me that way anymore... I wish I could tell my bestfriend that she means the world to me and without her I’d be nothing. I'd lose my mind. I'd go crazy. I wouldn't be myself. I wish I could tell my family that I’m sorry for being such a disappointment. I wish I could tell myself that. I wish I could cry for hours. I just want the pain to go away. But I hate looking weak. Oh no, no no no. I must not look weak. I am who I am and I wish that I wasn’t. But you mustn’t know. No one must know. So I keep to myself and let my own secrets lie in my dark little heart. Damn. Fuck. Shit. I like to cuss. I don’t know how or why, but it makes me feel better. God makes me feel better. Writing makes me feel better. Screaming makes me feel better. YOU MAKE ME FEEL BETTER. If only I were straight forward...

One + One = Two

I can't, I can't, I can't,
I need you to decide.
I believe that together as one,
We can conquer and divide.
This is all of me,
I'm not who you think I am.
Then you know what?
WHATEVER! Like seriously, I'm no scam.
How can I be what you want,
When you don't even know?
You are who I want, who I've waited for,
But you're confused and it shows.
It's like what we learned in school,
One plus one equals two.
Two colors mixed equals purple,
Take out the red and you're left with the blue.
I fancy friends in black and white,
I like things that are simple.
Ooo and when you smile, I melt,
I love your cute little dimple.
People are like articles of clothing,
You only pick the best.
And when wear and tear occurs,
Only the true and tough pass the test.
Life happens as it does,
There's no need to question why.
We all live to see another day,
And when it's our turn we all go out and die.

I Want to Be Completely Honest and Tell You That I Don't Really Know How I Feel Anymore, All I Do Know Is That I Love You With Everything I Have

You know that jacket you gave me?
I like it oh so very much.
I wear it to bed every night,
And I dream of your touch.
I can feel you there with me,
It's like you never left at all.
And when I close my eyes,
I can ever hear your voice call.
I can feel your arms around me,
And the softness of your hair.
It's like you're here holding me,
Tonight I don't care that life's not fair.
I can feel your breath on my neck,
It tingles from my head to my toes.
You give me feelings that I can't explain,
And I hope that they show.
Your kisses are electrifying
Your eyes pierce straight through my soul.
I love you with everything I have,
And I let it take it's toll.
I want you here with me,
I want you here now.
Be mine and just love me,
To the past we'll say ciao.
I love you, I love you, I love you.
God, just the thought of you makes me smile.
Grab my hand, kiss my lips, hold me tight,
And stay with me for a little while.

The Way I Love You Until I Cry

Lalalalala,
Is the song in my head.
You're always my favorite tune,
As I slip off to bed.
If only I could tell you everything,
I'm only a boy of sixteen.
Every smile you give makes my heart stop,
And the whole world seems so mean.
Can I be completely honest?
I miss the way we kiss.
I miss the way we were one,
I hate that it's you I miss.
I stay awake every night,
And I beat myself up over you.
The way I love you until I cry,
I just don't know what to do.
You knock me up off my feet,
Yesterday is nothing but history.
We have our whole lives to find where we're headed,
Tomorrow is nothing but a mystery.
Just please don't leave me here,
Let's live in the day and create something new.
My God if I could only say,
I'm holding every breath for you.

I Need, I Want, I Have To Have

I wish this was one of those stories,
That begin with 'once upon a time'.
But baby this is no fairytale,
So don't tell me that you're fine.
Well you stole my heart,
And I don't want it back.
Because if it was mine again,
It'd be you that I'd lack.
How can you turn and walk away,
And expect me to understand?
I'm shattered like broken glass,
Each piece happened by your hand.
I know things seem to get hard,
But we can never give up on what's true.
I've walked this world for years,
And I've found what I've been missing... you.
I never know if the message is clear,
But I always hope you get the clue.
I need, I want, I have to have,
My other half, I love you.

Maybe I'm A Little Bit Over My Head

Summer nights are always the best,
Maybe I'm a little bit over my head.
I let my mind wonder and it's always to you,
As I lay in the dark tucked into my bed.
Here the monsters can't get me,
The only one here though is heartbreak.
But when you can pretend that you're okay,
Heartbreak seems so far away and so fake.
I've slowly come to realize,
That I can't live my life away from you.
Just the thought of you gone forever,
Makes me sigh and feel so blue.
I don't think that will ever happen,
Actually I can guarantee that it won't take place.
Because you might not want to admit it,
But I can see love written all over your face.
I wish you could see how much you mean to me,
And how much I really do love your company in my heart.
I wish you could see how much I die inside,
Whenever we are constantly apart.
So please don't make this harder than it is,
Tell me everything I want and need to hear.
I can't keep handling this loneliness by myself,
Without you I'll slowly disappear I fear.

I Need You and Such

Am I still the boy you fell in love with?
I really need to know.
If I am then I'm baffled,
Why ever did you have to go?
I never talk with my heart,
It's always with my mind.
The thoughts that sound in there,
Sometimes aren't too kind.
I think things are getting better,
I miss you way too much.
Please, oh please come back,
I need you and such.
I always wonder what you think,
Whenever you read what I write.
Do you think me pathetic?
Should I just give up this fight?
I always fight my demons on a daily basis,
I could always do the same for you.
My strength is enough for us both,
You just have to do what you do.
So just put a little of our love,
Straight back into your heart.
And let's go back to the two souls,
That were inseparable from the start.

That's What I Want To Know

I wish I knew what you were thinking,
I wish I knew what went on in your mind.
I wish I could pick it apart,
And see what I could find.
Many questions I'd like to ask,
Many that will never be said.
Because keeping my lips sealed,
Is what'll keep it all in my head.
Now I don't want to let you down,
Never do I want to disappoint you.
I fear that's what's happening,
And I have no clue what to do.
I just want to know simple things,
I'm just too scared to ask.
I'm afraid that you will leave,
It's just an effortless task.
DOYOULOVEME?!
That's what I want to know.
AMITHEONEYOUWANT?!
That's what I want to know.
WHEREAREWEGOING?!
That's what I want to know.
WILLYOULEAVEME?!
That's what I want to know.
To many thoughts run through my head,
I'm pretty damn sure I'm going completely crazy.
I can't even see what's in my mind,
My vision has gone so effin' hazy.
I JUST WANT TO SHOUT,
Because nothing is ever good enough.
Can you hear the pain?
I think I'll be able to be tough.

You're Kind of, Basically, Pretty Much, Sort of, Always On My Mind

The thunder comes,
And I'm all alone.
The lighting flashes,
Everything is shown.
If I ever become blind,
You're the one thing my eyes would miss.
And if I had to choose one person,
You'd be the last I kiss.
I always count my prayers,
I always thank God above.
You're the best wish he's granted,
And graced me with your love.
You're kind of, basically, pretty much,
Sort of, always on my mind.
And when your fingers fit perfectly with mine,
I realize we're two people of the same kind.
So I lie awake at night missing you,
Wondering if you ever think of me.
And when the stars fall down,
We'll know this is meant to be.

I'll CUNxTuesday

You know I never like shaving,
I love designer things.
I wish I could be your angel,
And we could fly away on my wings.
Ke$ha is one of my heroes,
I'll CUNxTuesday.
I don't need any of your shit,
I can do things my own way.
Sometimes I want to apologize,
For being the one you don't love.
But I really think I am,
Whenever push comes to shove.
You're driving me crazy,
Because you're always on my mind.
Like a precious shell on the beach,
You're a treasure to find.
So take my hand one last time,
You can be mine tonight.
And when you're surrounded by darkness,
I'll be there to be your light.

Stay, I Missed You

Don't you hate when you feel,
The feeling you're incomplete?
I never see what I saw in you,
In all the faces I meet.
Scattered across the path of life,
Summer's coming to an end.
All the memories flood back,
Along with all the scars to mend.
But nothing ever hurts that bad,
When in the long run you're merry happy.
It's the feeling inside you give me,
That turns my heart all sappy.
You've carved my soul,
And you've changed my life.
I don't know how you did it,
But you made me fall in love twice.
Now that you're not here,
I don't really know what to do.
And when you get back you're mine,
Stay, I missed you.

I'm Only Human

I kind of like the sky,
It's such a pretty blue.
But I much prefer the night,
Where all the lies become true.
The day time shows everything,
Lies, pain, scars, and fear.
While the night time shrouds your vision,
To keep you content without a tear.
I much prefer love over heartbreak,
But I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all.
I love when winter freezes over the world,
While everything looks dead in the fall.
I think walks are quite lovely,
And storms feel so strong.
The time before the rain,
When danger doesn't feel wrong.
I'm not a weak person,
I tend to keep to myself.
I hold everything in,
And keep it on my shelf.
But with you I feel so different,
So different and free.
With you I feel special,
So special and me.
My heart pumps blood throughout my body,
I live each day as a God granted miracle.
And sometimes I laugh at my poetry,
Because it seems eerily lyrical.
I do make mistakes,
What do you want me to say?
I'm no where near perfect,
I'm only human and I like it that way.

We Sang The Same Tune

I sit back and reminisce,
Remember last June?
Our love was hard to beat,
We even sang the same tune.
But I've come to realize,
Love never lasts that long.
It's how we react to disaster,
That makes us strong.
The sparkle in your eye,
The way I make you feel.
Words of emotion were never exchanged,
But we knew it was real.
Friends, oh best friends,
We got another today.
Our lives bent and reconnected,
We love in a different way.
Life is good,
And God is great.
Believe and hope,
That this is fate.
Now come get closer,
I miss your warm embrace.
In my arms,
Will always be your place.

The World I Live In

Baby powder falls from the sky,
As you disappear from my head.
Pancakes are everywhere,
Kitty cat eyes from my bed.
The moon, it shines down,
The lollipop in your mouth.
People always leave,
But they never run south.
Take back those words,
Bubbles blowing everywhere.
Now baby it's all gone,
And the clothes begin to tear.
Shiney shiney diamonds,
The crystal chunk you call a heart.
Monsters are invading,
Clouds above begin to part.
Paint splatters on the piano,
I didn't want to do it.
Key after key turns in the door,
And all I needed was a hit.
The music is blaring,
I'm wondering right though.
Where's the purpose?
Everything is blue.
This is the world I live in,
I stand in the light.
But nothing ever makes sense here,
I laugh into the ongoing night.

What's Up With Tuesdays, Stephen?

Hey Stephen,
I have a question for you.
Is this what you call love?
Is this true?
I can't stand Mondays,
Why even try?
It's Tuesdays I'm after,
But I don't know why.
It's a mysterious feeling,
But I know it's right.
I'm in love with Stephen on a Tuesday,
I've finally seen the light.
I never see what singers see,
When they write about these two.
Stephen, Tuesdays, love,
Everyone get a clue.
It's a complicated thing,
So never ask.
It's a secret meaning,
With a simple task.
It defines time and logic,
I sit here and contemplate.
What's up with Tuesdays, Stephen?
I think it's just fate.

You Make Everything Better

Do you believe in soulmates,
Or even other halves?
You're the love of my life,
You make me smile with added laughs.
For once in my life,
I can finally say I win.
It's taken sixteen years,
But I've found my twin.
You make everything better,
Whenever I'm alone and down.
You're the bestfriend I could ask for,
Together we'll tear up the town.
Whenever I think of you,
You give the angels somber wings.
You're my mirror image,
Just different and better at certain things.
But as we grow up,
I hope we never grow apart.
You're what keeps me going,
What fuels my heart.
I always thank God,
For sending you from above.
He gave me that extra shove,
And he showed me your love.
I could never have asked for anyone better,
You get me like no one else can.
And no matter what in life,
I'll always be your biggest fan.

Broken Hearts and Shattered Dreams

Once upon a time,
I once felt loved.
It shined like the sun,
And fell from above.
But that once upon a time,
Never got a happy ending.
Broken hearts and shattered dreams,
Neither of us truly comprehending.
And as the light disappears,
I fade into the night.
Deep, dark, dangerous,
I give into the fight.
I'm no longer wanted,
No one ever needs me.
A pathetic demented soul,
All it needs to be is free.
If I go with that,
I'd be considered a liar.
All I want is love,
To set my heart on fire.
But it won't be long,
When the sun rises next dawn.
No one will ever miss me,
And I'll be completely gone.

I'll Go To Sleep and I'll Cry

You know the feeling of feeling alone,
All by yourself in this God forsaken town?
I walk the streets alone and cold,
The night time clouds cover my frown.
I don't want to feel like this,
I don't want to be alone anymore.
Everyone has left me,
And I'm dead to the core.
I'm waiting for someone,
I've been waiting here for you.
But now I'm lost and can't find my way,
I wish I could only get a clue.
So tonight as I lay my head down,
I'll go to sleep and I'll cry.
No one ever really wants me,
So why even try?

I Need A New Face

I wanna live my life,
I wish I was older.
I wanna get married,
And live somewhere colder.
I want to be with the one I love,
Happily say "I do".
Be somewhere else, someone else,
And start over new.
My heart always deceives me,
I need a new face.
May I quit now?
I'm tired of this race.
My feet are way too big,
They perfectly match my heart.
I trust to easily,
I love from the start.
I wanna wear a ring,
Visible on my left ring finger.
I want to be in love,
And I want to let it linger.
Take my breath away,
Breathe it in and push it out.
Hold tight to me,
Show me what it's all about.
Winter comes,
We'll build a fire.
Summer arrives,
In the shade we'll expire.
With you I'll smile and grow old,
Because forever and always never tasted so sweet.
Life is like a dance,
And together we create our own beat.

You'll Be There Too

I'm in love with my bestfriend,
We're bestfriends because we broke up.
But I guess I can't be picky,
When drawing from life's cup.
I can pretend to be okay,
As long as I keep going.
One foot in front of the other,
My tears never showing.
Paint on my smile,
I'll always be here for you.
Through life's issues,
I know you'll be there too.
Fuck I love you,
That'll never go away.
I'll make sure you know it, feel it,
Ever single day.

I'll Be Your Bestfriend

You don't want me to go,
But you can't handle reality.
You no longer wanted us,
So you set me free.
Our love was unexpected,
For you it was unaccepted.
It was never fully experienced,
And that's how we left it.
Unresolved I won't go,
Even though it hurts inside.
And whenever you need me,
I'll open my arms wide.
I want to be your warm embrace,
The love you feel when you're down.
I'll be your bestfriend,
Because it hurts to see you frown.
I won't ever leave you,
I believe in all kinds of love.
Without you I'll be drowning in this sea,
And I'll never make it above.
So give me that smile I love so much,
Tell me everything will be alright.
I just want to feel your touch,
Before we fade into the night.

FckShtUp

Go ahead and waste your life away,
While I pretend to care.
You should really get over yourself,
Life is never fair.
You learn, you live, you die,
I learned to never love.
I lived to never tell a lie.
I die and rise above.
I always like to look at life,
On the brighter side.
But when you do what you do,
It opens my eyes wide.
I like to watch the water run,
And fill up half the cup.
But right now it's half empty,
So lets fuck shit up.
For tonight I'll forget,
Of all the stress and the pain.
Life happens hard and fast,
And always leaves a strain.

Tell Me How I Taste

When your lips touch his,
Tell me how I taste.
I hope you both like leftovers,
'Cause y'all were such a waste.
Now don't tell me I don't understand,
When all you are is a whore.
Your appetite is never satisfied,
All you want is more.
You make me laugh in disgust,
You've lost all of my respect.
I'll just tell all my friends you're GAY,
What more do you expect?
Now don't ever test my anger,
That's never the wisest choice.
I hold every one of your lies,
Your secrets I will voice.
I'm just tired of all this bullshit,
I'm glad you're out of my life.
I'll find someone better,
Who won't stab my back with a knife.
So bitches get to steppin',
I'll find someone with a bigger dick.
Everytime I see your faces,
It just makes my stomach sick.
I know revenge is a nasty thing,
But it's something I will do.
Sluts are never winners,
I hope you'll get the clue.

Love Is Strong

You can't kick me down,
When I'm already on the floor.
I run my fingers through my hair,
As I walk out the door.
It's just who I am,
You can't ever stop me.
If you really do love it,
Then I suggest you set it free.
I like to wear blue plaid,
And text way too much.
I always look like a mess,
I can't help it and such.
You say love is all you want,
Well I want to be happy too.
You always make me smile,
Like the warm sun and summer blue.
Dancing beneath the stars,
Watching movies on a Sunday night.
Chasing me down the beach,
And kissing in the rain feels right.
Show me where you come from,
And everything you are.
I'll always make my wish,
'Cause you're my shooting star.

Love Me Forever & Never

I don't know what to think,
Whenever you come and go.
Should I love you?
Are you friend or foe?
You broke my heart,
And then ran away.
You tell me all this shit,
What do you expect me to say?
Some days I want to kill you,
Other I just want to hate.
FUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOU,
It's just a little too late.
I don't know what to do,
When you're too weak.
What the hell do I do,
When I'm not what you seek?
You told me once before,
That you loved me at one time.
When did it ever stop,
When did you cross that line.
I love how you took it back,
I love how I never hear it.
I'm still here for you,
Even though you put me through shit.
I don't want to leave you,
I'm scared I'll lose you forever.
But I still don't know what to do,
When you love me for forever & never.
So point me where I need to go,
Tell me what you want me to do.
Do you want me to stay or leave?
Tell me and give me some kind of clue.