In the Lands of Forever

I wish forever was now,
I'd gladly say "I do".
For this feeling of completion,
Could only be added by you.
You and I are two,
But in love we are one.
The story book is long,
And we've only just begun.
In the lands of Forever,
That's where you'll find my heart.
Right next to yours,
They'll never be apart.
So with each promise you utter,
Is a word closer to always.
You know the promise I want,
Together we'll spend our days.

My Heart Won't Disengage

Never shall I leave,
But sometimes I will falter.
My heart won't disengage,
I'll meet you at the alter.
The day I first kissed you,
I made a promise to love.
A promise to protect,
A heart sent from above.
Nothing is ever easy,
But it was easy to fall for you.
I'll light myself up,
For never shall I be blue.
I'm losing it slowly,
But I'm yours too keep.
Forever and ever and always,
As next to you I fall asleep.

Just Remember Not to Forget

So I heard today,
That you'd fallen in love.
Someone not me,
It was so hard to think of.
It hit me harder than I thought,
But I don't know why.
It really did hurt,
I just can't lie.
Just couldn't be away from you,
But you did what you had to do.
I don't regret the choice I made,
This is true.
It doesn't change the fact,
That I miss the warmth you radiate.
But I have fallen in love too,
Guess this was all up to fate.
I always think of the promise,
The night you spoke to me.
The ring on my finger,
Its where its meant to be.
We've now reached December,
And we're making families of our own.
Apart is where we belong,
But never ever alone.
Just remember not to forget,
Love will never leave your side.
We were but love junk vagabonds,
Who learnt to abide.

A Simple Little Rant

Why is it that whenever I say goodbye you give a retort? Its how its always been. Why? Is it because something deep inside tells you to keep going? To keep replying. To keep egging on the conversation. No. You'd deny that immediately. Always too scared to admit, even to yourself, what really lies inside. I tried for half a year to understand what went on inside that head, but I always failed. You always changed and I couldn't keep up. I became not enough. I was left behind. This was never the first time, and it'll never be the last. This is how it shall always be between us. This silly game of cat and mouse, with neither one of us wanting the other to win. We fight. Constantly. Never really a peaceful word between us. Even when we do spit out a compliment, we don't mean it. Secretly we both wish for the same thing. Longing that the other isn't doing as well as they had. Together. Together as one. So we fight. Fight. Never giving up until its too late, then still continuing. Its how it will always be. We can't stop it. No matter how many times we say goodbye. But alas, goodbye is never what we mean. Goodbye is always a new beginning for us. Its the last thing we can cling to to keep us going. You were me and I was you at one point, but with that point we drew a fine line and walked away. Well, you did. I just followed like a sad puppy with my tail between my legs. I finally gave up. I let you give the final blow and I fell to the floor. I let you win. But there's still that ache, that longing inside. I always wonder if you have it as well. You have to. You just have to have it. You told me the same things I told you. Those three simple words. I know you meant it. So you must feel it. But, you're too scare. You always have been. That's ok. Ok... not really. But you said you did what you had to do. And so now I am as well. I'm sorry. Now you know how I feel. I still feel like I did that fifth day of the twelfth month. It won't change. I won't change. But we've hardened. We hardened because of what you did. And I understand. Its just hectic. Not that simple anymore. Thus the feelings of artificial hate we have for one another. I'll die before I change the way I look at you. Goodbye.

Magical Thinking Gets Us By

You're starting to grow up now,
As you sit in your apartment and cry.
The world seems so mean now,
But all you can do is try.
The sunlight brings new horizons,
You're just another person in the crowd.
And when you open your mouth,
Your words never come out loud.
But you never give up,
Keeping your head held high.
Always looking for that special something,
Just trying to get by.
At night the darkness lingers,
It's the same old frightening fears.
Hoping the monsters won't get you,
Wishing that he was here.
Never worrying about life,
With him time always flies.
Together there's forever and always,
Magical thinking gets us by.

I've Got a Secret (Part II)

A silence falls upon us all,
No one knows what to say.
Erie eyes cast a circle,
Each go in different ways.
Always hand in hand,
And a smile on each face.
These people think they're "best friends",
But that is surely not the case.
Each one holds something close,
A secret the other doesn't know.
But they always shrug it off,
Hoping it won't show.
They go about their lives,
Thinking its okay.
Lying to one another,
Making it day to day.
So until their dying breath,
They believe they have it covered.
But to their dismay,
Each "best friend" knew what hovered.

In Need of Some Direction

These days seem to go by so slow,
Yet the time passes so fast.
I always seem to falter,
And a moment never seems to last.
Lately I've been kind of lost,
In need of some direction.
I fell into your arms,
With a need of affection.
I run my fingers through my hair,
And I look into your eyes.
Crack a grin, nod my head,
I look past all your lies.
It's never an easy journey,
This path we call love.
But we always stick through it,
When push comes to shove.
So I'll drink to your health,
A nice bottle of red wine.
Because I've come to realize,
You're the best that's been mine.