I'll Live the Life I Want to Live

What is it that you say?
I should make some changes in the things I do?
I think you should write off your lies,
Because I will never let you through.
I'll live the life I want to live,
And not be someone that I'm not.
People will never tell me who I'm meant to be,
I'm true to me and so I've been taught.
You can waste away the lie you are,
Without seeing with your own two eyes.
But soon the time will start to pass,
And all the truth within will die.
Can't say I never tried to help,
I gave it everything I had.
Now you're far away and not yourself,
Is the feeling I feel so sad?
NO.

The Distance Is Daring

I'm not perfect,
But I'm perfect for you.
And the way you make me smile,
I know this is true.
I'm finally falling again,
I never thought it was possible with a broken soul.
But you picked up all my damaged pieces,
And I let you take your toll.
What the hell am I suppose to do,
When you're always on my mind?
I know the distance is daring,
But you're one of a kind.
I always trip and stumble upon my words,
Whenever I talk to you.
You're here to pick me up when I need it,
Whenever I'm down and blue.
I'd give my soul, my life, my heart, my everything,
Just to keep you here with me.
I'm ready to let lose and let go,
And be everything I know we can be.

I Wish I Was Straight Forward (Like Kate Nash)

Sometimes I just wanna say what’s on my mind,
But I don’t, so I write.
And every time you’re upset I laugh,
And you take it offensive so we fight.
I want to tell the world to fuck off,
But I don’t, so I sing.
Summer only comes once a year,
And I want more than just a fling.
The thoughts inside my head are buzzing,
They want out so bad.
I like to dress the way I do,
And I know that it’s no fad.
Sometimes I wish I was kind of different,
I wish I was straight forward like Kate Nash.
I’d say what’s begging to get out,
I’d talk, not write, and it’d be out in a flash.
I wish I could tell the world to fuck off because everyone has evil in them and no one ever puts it to good use. I wish we could just all get along or at least pretend we do and smile. But we can’t. So I keep to myself in my own little world. I WANT TO BE HAPPY! I want to love and be loved. I wish I wasn’t a horrible person, I could lie and say I’m not… but then I’d be lying. And lying is bad. I just wish I was fucking straight forward. I wish I could look the one I love in the eye and just tell him. Tell him how much he means to me and if I were to lose him my heart would deflate and my spirit would be crushed. But I'm afraid that if I tell him I'd lose him. I'm afraid to bring that subject up. I don't think he would listen or want to even understand. I don't think he loves me that way anymore... I wish I could tell my bestfriend that she means the world to me and without her I’d be nothing. I'd lose my mind. I'd go crazy. I wouldn't be myself. I wish I could tell my family that I’m sorry for being such a disappointment. I wish I could tell myself that. I wish I could cry for hours. I just want the pain to go away. But I hate looking weak. Oh no, no no no. I must not look weak. I am who I am and I wish that I wasn’t. But you mustn’t know. No one must know. So I keep to myself and let my own secrets lie in my dark little heart. Damn. Fuck. Shit. I like to cuss. I don’t know how or why, but it makes me feel better. God makes me feel better. Writing makes me feel better. Screaming makes me feel better. YOU MAKE ME FEEL BETTER. If only I were straight forward...

One + One = Two

I can't, I can't, I can't,
I need you to decide.
I believe that together as one,
We can conquer and divide.
This is all of me,
I'm not who you think I am.
Then you know what?
WHATEVER! Like seriously, I'm no scam.
How can I be what you want,
When you don't even know?
You are who I want, who I've waited for,
But you're confused and it shows.
It's like what we learned in school,
One plus one equals two.
Two colors mixed equals purple,
Take out the red and you're left with the blue.
I fancy friends in black and white,
I like things that are simple.
Ooo and when you smile, I melt,
I love your cute little dimple.
People are like articles of clothing,
You only pick the best.
And when wear and tear occurs,
Only the true and tough pass the test.
Life happens as it does,
There's no need to question why.
We all live to see another day,
And when it's our turn we all go out and die.

I Want to Be Completely Honest and Tell You That I Don't Really Know How I Feel Anymore, All I Do Know Is That I Love You With Everything I Have

You know that jacket you gave me?
I like it oh so very much.
I wear it to bed every night,
And I dream of your touch.
I can feel you there with me,
It's like you never left at all.
And when I close my eyes,
I can ever hear your voice call.
I can feel your arms around me,
And the softness of your hair.
It's like you're here holding me,
Tonight I don't care that life's not fair.
I can feel your breath on my neck,
It tingles from my head to my toes.
You give me feelings that I can't explain,
And I hope that they show.
Your kisses are electrifying
Your eyes pierce straight through my soul.
I love you with everything I have,
And I let it take it's toll.
I want you here with me,
I want you here now.
Be mine and just love me,
To the past we'll say ciao.
I love you, I love you, I love you.
God, just the thought of you makes me smile.
Grab my hand, kiss my lips, hold me tight,
And stay with me for a little while.

The Way I Love You Until I Cry

Lalalalala,
Is the song in my head.
You're always my favorite tune,
As I slip off to bed.
If only I could tell you everything,
I'm only a boy of sixteen.
Every smile you give makes my heart stop,
And the whole world seems so mean.
Can I be completely honest?
I miss the way we kiss.
I miss the way we were one,
I hate that it's you I miss.
I stay awake every night,
And I beat myself up over you.
The way I love you until I cry,
I just don't know what to do.
You knock me up off my feet,
Yesterday is nothing but history.
We have our whole lives to find where we're headed,
Tomorrow is nothing but a mystery.
Just please don't leave me here,
Let's live in the day and create something new.
My God if I could only say,
I'm holding every breath for you.

I Need, I Want, I Have To Have

I wish this was one of those stories,
That begin with 'once upon a time'.
But baby this is no fairytale,
So don't tell me that you're fine.
Well you stole my heart,
And I don't want it back.
Because if it was mine again,
It'd be you that I'd lack.
How can you turn and walk away,
And expect me to understand?
I'm shattered like broken glass,
Each piece happened by your hand.
I know things seem to get hard,
But we can never give up on what's true.
I've walked this world for years,
And I've found what I've been missing... you.
I never know if the message is clear,
But I always hope you get the clue.
I need, I want, I have to have,
My other half, I love you.